Being an only child was beautiful when I was younger. It wasn’t until I got into my teen years that I realized that having everything be mine mine mine wasn’t all it was cracked up to be. Looking back it was weird to set my animals up and talk to them but I was really talking to myself. I also loved that I got my mom all to myself but when she died I had no one to bear the responsibilities of burying her. Here is a look into why I talk to myself and a look into being an only child.
Being an only child means I’ll never be an Aunt. Yes, I have people that call me auntie but to have that blood hits differently. I feel like I could be the rich Auntie even though I’m not rich.
I lived in constant fear of losing my mom every day and being alone. I used to make myself sick if she was late to get me or if someone else came and got me and it wasn’t her. I prayed a lot when I was little that my mom would live until I was I was at least 21. The Lord did one better and let her live until I was 26.
Talking to my animals set me on the journey of being real with myself. No one can tell me about me but me and with my different personalities (yes all my animals had a different one) I knew that I could adapt to anything life threw at me. Also I’m not crazy you are lol.
I know being envious of people with big families may be a thing but I was envious of my friends who had a sister. A real sister because that is something I’ve always wanted. My friends are my sisters but again it’s nothing like growing up together with the same parents. It’s just…..different.
I never feel comfortable with people helping me because I always feel I have to do everything on my own. It sucks because I never ask for help….I always think I’m bothering people. I call it the only child syndrome.
Isolating myself because I feel my presence doesn’t matter even though people say it does. I always feel left out of the conversation because I feel I have nothing to say.
Being an only child is lonely even with friends. Being an only child also has its benefits. You are a bit more selfish with your time and you value your friends even more. It sucks when you have to navigate life alone as you grow older though which is why I always wanted at least 3 kids so they won’t ever have to be alone as I get older. I settled for 2 (knocks on wood that I don’t have another one). Who else can relate to the only child syndrome?
